Angelicrebel15

You don't know. Not once have I ever wished for anything more Then to see behind your mocking tone I know i frustrate you You are speechless in my fear The things that I experience. Are a mystery to you. One where the answer is not how but why? You cannot see through my eyes. You never will. I must accept it. So why does it sting to know the truth? That none of you will sympathize with my confusion. None of you will understand the reality of my fear. My hesitation. I cannot tell you. The brand of "tough love", that burns me like an acid. Will not help me. I do not know what will. But I must find my own way. Or give up. and if I choose to

Beauty and Pain I would like to say that one is a truth one a lie But they are both. Yet neither. Inseparable and intertwined like siblings, ever warring for a parents favor They can not be outdone. The world needs them both to survive.

You say your words are in jest. But, they are a poison. One that kills silently. Yet wantonly. Your ignorance is both sword and shield. You are the knight with armor. But no training in battle. Come, fight me. Face your truth. and I will consider your "jest" forgiven

I know a secret. A little birdie told me. With feathers white and sharp as bone, eyeless sockets staring into my very soul. There it hovers. Just above my left shoulder. Whispering black speech into my ears; Incessantly. No one else can see it.

Your brilliance, encased in ice. Red, the color of passion. Of beauty. Of life. Seemingly invincible. Striking out. Against the eerie beauty, of the grey-backed dawn It is the glimmer of the end. The ice melts. Crystalline tears, Become frost, upon my skin, upon this lens. Color fades. The snow-white realm, has won again.

Twenty-years have come and gone Like the snap of a finger. Days that I only vaguely remember. But wasn't that yesterday? Months and years blending together Seasons ever reappearing Like some kind of magic trick Here and then…. Poof! Gone. Tantalizingly presented as eons But in reality nanoseconds. And I am terrified. That I'll close my eyes for just a moment And all the world will change An age will be gone before I can blink My life will be nothing but ashes and dust.